I accidentally punched a flower. I didn't mean to, something about it made me want to flick it and it tore right off, with the heart still intact. I felt terrible afterwards, and it made me think about the fragility of life, and how it may have already been dying because it was stupid enough to lean away from the sun, but then again maybe it likes the feel of the sun on its neck instead of its face. All flowers are girls, and bees are dudes. It's an interesting matriarchy of an ecosystem that surprisingly works.
My cats have learned to not mind each other's company. It started out on the day they got their flea vaccination, something about their joint demise brought them closer together. They are also very wary of spots that have each other's smells on them, it's amazing to watch. My cat was sleeping on the beanbag earlier and my other cat sniffed it and went away on its own, it also avoided the bed on its way out because my other cat was on there. Wouldn't it be great if humans were the same way?
I watched the night roll on by twice, once when it was still dark, and another time when the sun was up. It's amazing how life surged into the otherwise quiet street, filling it with cars and pedestrians where there were only delivery guys and garbage collectors. I thought about the garbage collector today, there was no one else walking on by and it made me think how he was safe because he had nothing to lose. Who wants to hurt someone without getting anything out of it? That guy owned the place.
When the sun was up, I saw a pigeon timidly approach another pigeon, presumably the female, only to have her fly away when he was close enough to have a pigeon cuddle. It was heartbreaking to watch and it made me aww and giggle at the little guy. I hope he gets some soon. He was rather handsome but his feathers were hella ruffled round the back. He may have been in a fight too, bad day for the little guy.
Good day for me! I've been watching Scrubs, for four days in a row now. It's something to do and it gives me company. I missed a big interview today because I overslept, but I luckily managed to reschedule it to later this week. It took a bit of groveling that I'm not proud of, but I managed. I'll make it if I have to stay up all night, since I missed 7 alarms today. Makes you think...really dark things mainly, so I'll let that trail off right around here.
The dogs have been coming on by every day, I want to feed them but we have no leftovers, and I'm too broke to buy cat food let alone dog food. I wish our neighborhood had one of them crazy ladies who fed strays, too bad it's me for this neighborhood.
You know, I've always thought JD was super lucky to have Turk, I never thought he was lucky to have Carla, which makes me think about the way I'm built and what it really takes to make me happy. Maybe I'm thinking too much into it, but they really have a connection, you know? Carla is needy and always makes up fights about nothing, making mountains out of mole hills as Turk once said. Him and JD just support each other and have fun. Better relationship, hands down.
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