Harum-scarum Madcap.

One of the best advice I’ve had when it comes to picking a career came from my dad, and it was along the lines of “If you already know what you love and are afraid to pick it, I can ensure you that nothing works in this godforsaken country so you might as well pick something you love and not get a job than to pick something you don’t because you thought it works and still not get a job. At least in the first case you’ll have something to do in the meantime”. You see, it doesn’t really just apply to career, but it kinda sucks when you pair that with being impulsive.

Besides the fact that it’s really draining and continuously draws you out of your comfort zone, you also can’t expect people to react the same way. So now instead of dealing with the one variable that is yourself, you have yet another unknown variable, that is people. And the annoying bit about telling people what you think/feel/believe or whatever it is you’re telling them about anything at all because you’re impulsive is that you no longer have control over that situation, now that they’re in the know. And you begin to wonder how easier it would have been had they not known in the first place, and you start calling yourself stupid for two hours instead of taking a nap because the hours of ‘do I or do I not’ you skip being impulsive are compensated in the ‘you’re-so-fucking-stupid-you-shoulda-kept-your-mouth-shut!’ hours. Yeh.

I think I trailed off there..

ANYWHO, point is, I’d be lying to you if I told you that I’d rather be that person who says ‘do I or do I not’ a thousand times in their heads before they do something, because jumping into things feels so good. And even though you might regret your stupidity now and cringing in your head about all the stuff you shouldn’t have said/done, on the long run, you’ll be looking back onto those with the relief that you had the guts to do it, and the live entertainment along with that package. Just get through the cringing for now.

Does anyone know how to do that though? Cuz I sorta need help in that department.

Impulsiveness has other pros too you know; you get the best memories, you know for sure that it’s definitely not in your head, you burn more calories fretting over it, you don’t evolve into a complete burn-out who cogitates the extra-pepperoni option on a friggin pizza, you always have the guts excuse to make you feel better if the period of compunction draws on to a hyphen, you probably feel so bad about it that you’re not gonna do it again, but you will, which provides excellent aforementioned compunction abbreviation, you have a roller coaster of a life, you ward off the boring people because you eventually scare the crap out of them, your brainwaves are arguably more relaxed with the absence of all the doubt, or more active with the over stimulation resulted from second-guessing, you have better reserve to draw on when you get bored since it’s something that renovates itself on a daily basis, you know for sure that you’ve brought down routine once and for all even though you never really knew how people had it without killing themselves, let alone chose it voluntarily.

You probably get the point by now..

Until that that, down there, is made possible:

I’d rather just punch the person in the face…