Backspace

 

Backspace. Backspace.Backspace.

Had this blog had no readers, I wouldn’t have stopped to think before clicking publish, but you see, I’ve never been good with audiences, or with anything personal for that matter. That’s why my drafts folder is always full. God I wish I could just write my heart out you know, but you can’t do that now can you?

Yes you can.

My friend took me out last night only to ditch me in the middle of a place overflowing with people that already know each other backwards, because she found something more interesting to do and someone more amusing to hang out with. For sometime, when I got tired of socializing only to find that I got  people’s attention for not more than a couple of minutes at a time, then they’d slightly and almost magnetically re-adjust the way they were standing to form a perfect circle that I’m left out of, I walked out on all those crowds and sat on the stairs staring into nothingness, waiting till it’s 10:30 so someone will pick me up and get me back home.

You know what sucks? That’s a close friend of mine.

There is a bright side and a dark side to everything you know. Since I’m used to people doing that to me and, well, used to moving on my own, someone over there was nice enough to call her mum and say she’ll hang out for a little while longer just so she wouldn’t leave me hanging till someone picked me up because I didn’t know my way around. She didn’t have to do that. I didn’t ask her to. She just did. She was nice to a complete stranger, for absolutely no reason at all.

That’s one thing.

 

Are you talking with *name*... ?

no

Wait what?

do you mean like generally or now

?

lol both

generally yes

now no

*they’re* offline

lol

ok I don't want to be mean to you, but *they’re* online..

oh

oh

…

oh

See?

ow

I'm sorry if that hurt.

I understand why

no actually I needed that It’s my fault actually

S:

I'm gonna go now

 

I kinda had that one coming though. For being a clingy asshole.

But that’s another thing.

Bright side? I’m not sure. And you know what sucks? that person is a close friend too.

Do I go on? There’s more you know. 5 more. In 2 days. More with the ditching and more with the things I always backspace.

Meh.